Glitter Laced Veins

So, my friend decided to bring me some vodka. how many calories are in a shot of Smirnoff vodka?

I am finally losing the weight!
I lifted my arms the other day in the changing rooms of rue 21, and could see the bones running across my chest.

The ones who tell you how much they love you are always the ones that hurt you the most.

That heart-breaking, gut-wrenching pain that only the one you love can cause.
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Empty

I do not want to eat.
When I am empty, I feel free, on a natural high.
As soon as the food hits my stomach, it will all be gone.

Losing again.

I’m going to be the thing I’ve been trying I be, because what I am is bothering me. Starting tomorrow, I will suceed.

I love you, Boy, just like you love me.

“I love you like the sun loves two scoops of raisins. I need you like Mormon girls need sins. I want you more than alphabets want vowels. You are the pepper to my salt. You are the kool to my aid. You make my world spin faster than Superman in his second movie. I love you Kayla Robinson, and only you. It will never be the same in my life without you, and that is why I am begging you now to stay with me for as long as you care to live, and I hope to someday have a happy life with no one else but you, and hopefully some beautiful children of ours.”

-Jacob Riley Rondeau.

I want nothing more

Than for you to be right here.

To see me the way I see you.

To hold me close, the way I wished for you to,

Size: Small for tops, 0 to 3 [US] for bottoms
Age: 16
Highest Weight: 125 lbs
Lowest Weight: 108 lbs
Goal Weight: 94 lbs

Favorite Diet Food?
Blue Sky [free] Cherry Vanilla Creme soda.

Favorite Binge Food?
Thai food.

Favorite Exercise?
Really long walks across town.

Thinspo?
Shelley Mulshine

What Makes You Slip Up?
Being stuck at home.

What Makes You Strong?
Stayin out at oter houses.

When Did It Start?
Eighth grade.

Does Anyone Know?
Yes, but they think I am gerund better.

Do You Want Help?
No.

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
Between 100 and 900 usually.

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?
Something that needs to change.

Are You In A Relationship?
No.

Is It For Attention?
No.

Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?
Thin.

Are You Depressed?
No.

Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
No.

Ever Been To A Psychologist?
Yes.

Are You On Any Medication?
No.

I AM -
[x] anorexic
[] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[ ] under 100lbs
[ ] starving myself
[ ] participating in a fast
[ ] vegan

PEOPLE -
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[ ] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me

I WISH -
[x] I were thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[ ] I was under 100lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was prettier
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend
[ ] I could disappear

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[x] shaking
[ ] being weak (but strong at the same time)
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[ ] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

I HATE -
[ ] when people stare
[ ] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[ ] being single
[ ] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[ ] fat people

I NEED -
[x] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[x] more friends
[x] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[x] a gym membership
[ ] to lose 50 lbs
[ ] to lose 40 lbs
[ ] to lose 30 lbs
[x] to lose 20 lbs
[x] to lose 10 lbs

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Empty

Losing again.

I love you, Boy, just like you love me.

I want nothing more